I’m Older Than My Dad And Just Like Him

So I was thinking the other day it’s coming up on 23 years since my father Brian Kenneth Savage died. I’ll have to check on the day but I think it was May 1986. It’s strange because I was about 13 or 14 when he died and yet he seems so much older and smarter than I was then. My mother has given me some of his identification cards, drivers license, firearm permit, college ID and passport over the years but it never hit me until recently that he died at the age of 36. My brothers and I were 13, 9 and 7 years old when he died. My son Jakob is 6 1/2. I’m 37 now. What a weird time.

So I managed to live longer than my father has and it seems strange as if I am on borrowed time. My father and I share many traits in life and our careers. Height, body type, career, bad eating habits and for me lately lack of exercise. So at this point in my life I can see that we both work long hours and don’t take care of ourselves as best as we can. Of course doctors and family members say that I need to get in better shape and I feel healthy most of the time but I do have type 2 diabetes basically from my weight. Currently I weigh 350 pounds. About six years ago I weighed 295 pounds and was in very good shape. I was the strongest I’ve ever been in my life and I could run 5 miles in about 35 to 40 minutes and I did that fairly often. After our son was born, I spent more time with our new baby then I did taking care of myself and maintaining my health and fitness. I think my relationship with my wife also began to change at this time. But that’s another post.

So why am I writing this?

I developed type 2 diabetes when I first got married in 2000 because of the weight I gained. I wasn’t diagnosed until after our honeymoon when I finally went to the doctors to find out why I always fell asleep after eating and I would get shaky if I didn’t eat routinely during the day. It is now gotten to the point where there’s been a few times that I haven’t eaten in time and have become very lethargic, confused and close to passing out. It’s called hypoglycemic and it’s dangerous. Also with the situation with my wife Erin, I think with the extra stress I’ve developed a weird feeling in my chest as if my heart flutters for a second or two. I got this checked out and was told its heart palpitations and could be related to stress, too much caffeine energy drinks or something more serious. I was told to relax and eat better and “try to get out and enjoy life a little more with the joy of walking.”

So now at the age of 37 it seems like I don’t take people’s advice to often including doctors and my health and fitness level have dropped dramatically over the last six years. So I’m writing this to scare the shit out of myself and convince myself to start exercising more and cut out the fast food that it seems like I live on lately. Oh sure I get a gym membership. I’m paying $75 a month for Boston sports club and have only been there a few times in the last four months. Getting out first thing in the morning and taking a walk or going over to the apartment health club and getting on a treadmill or elliptical machine would do great for me and my health in the morning.

Even my son Jakob says he wants to go over to the gym and work out with me.

How much more motivation do I need?

So as I sit here in my apartment living alone I turned on the TV and strangely enough the Shawshank Redemption movie was on HBO and it was at the park where Morgan Freeman’s character says “get busy living or get busy dying.” I shut the TV off right away sat in the dark thinking for 20 minutes and decided to write this post to get mass out of bed tomorrow morning at work out and start making some changes. If you care I’ll let you know how it goes.

10 thoughts on “I’m Older Than My Dad And Just Like Him

  1. Nice post Ken. I think most people can relate to your story because at some point or another everyone needs some motivation. Thankfully for me, my wife has kept my family very health conscious. However, no one can make us change, it’s something we have to want for ourselves. The more we want to more likely we are going to take action. Good luck and thanks for the post.

  2. thx Jason. Ya know it’s so easy to say eat healthy and starting taking better care of myself, but with a great but demanding job, family problems and living alone it sometimes gets a little overwhelming and the last person that is taken care of is me.

  3. I didn’t realize you lost your dad in1986, was it after we all left SHS? The stress of losing ones parent or life issues are always a difficult time. I hope this will help you get motivated Ken, think of your son Jake, how much you love him. Diabetes can be helped, by controlling eating habits. It runs in my family also, Think of Jake graduating and becoming a dad someday. Being around is the most important thing to him and you I”m sure. I lost my dad from a 2cd stroke in 2007, he was 85, but that loss is so tough to live with. It took me about 2yrs to pull myself together and move on, do it for yourself and your son… The kid I knew back in SHS would probably listen. You know where to talk , I am always logging in and out of FB!

  4. Hey Ken, Im sorry about what happened to your dad. It makes my heart drop to my stomach. So, I just decided to wish you a Merry Christmas. Hope this makes your life warm and welcome in more peoples life. 🙂

    • Hey Ken, I have type 2 diabetes as well, got diagnosed two years ago. I know where ur coming from and Im glad your not giving up. Your a great man and deserve better for yourself and your son. Anytime you need a test strip let me know 😉

Leave a Reply